gingerleigh (gingerleigh) wrote,
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A Reminder

How strange and encouraging it is to find someone new. And to find that someone new in a person you've spent countless hours with discussing life, love, companionship... and not even suspecting that's where it would be hidden at all. Perhaps that right there is the perfect way to find like. Or even - love. Did I say that?

The experience I'm having right now is an incredible one. It's got the excitement, the adventure. Learning, letting go. The sense of humor, the charisma. These are what memories are made of. I don't want to jump into things here, but he's the guy I've been searching for. I knew it the instant I met him; wearing giant yellow Mickey Mouse slippers. I wasn't aware of it.. but I felt something. A feeling inside of me stopped and said "Hey... wait a minute.." I wanted to know him better, even if it was in a platonic way. Looking back, I've remembered some moments that I DID want him for myself. I didn't know that's what they meant:

  • Noticing him slide his hand across the hip of a girl he was seeing for a while (and wishing it were me)

  • Making sure he was always invited

  • Calling and inviting him myself and being dissapointed if he'd say no

  • Having a random romantic dream of he & I taking a walk under an umbrella on a windy autumn New York day and sharing a tender kiss

  • Asking a million questions about him to friends - out of curiosity

  • Beng extra charming, teasing and witty when he was around (though, I felt his antics paired with mine created good chemistry and allowed me to be that way w/him)


These types of things you unknowingly stumble over and when you find them you just go on living your everyday... you don't put 2 and 2 together. It wouldn't make sense to because this person is strictly your friend. I didn't realize any of this had any kind of relevance until after I kissed him, after everything became clear. I had forgotten my instant crush on him. I had also forgotten what a passionate kiss felt like, what having someone you can rely on felt like, what having honest fun felt like, what having a date to dinner felt like... and as a last thought, what it feels like to have someone to write about.

Thank you for reminding me.



New
No Doubt
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away

New, you're so new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past
New, you're so new

My normal hesitation is gone
And I really gravitate to your will
Are you here to fetch me out?
'Cause I've never had this taste in my mouth

Oh you're not old
And you're not familiar
Recently discovered and I'm learning about you

New, you're so new
You, you're new

And you're consuming me violently
And your reverence shamelessly tempting me
Who sent this maniac?
'Cause I never had this taste in the past

Oh you're different, you're different from the former
Like a fresh battery, I'm energized by you

Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away

Why am I so curious?
This territory is dangerous
I'll probably end up at the start
I'll be back in line with my broken heart
New, you're so new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past

Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away

And I can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Don't let it go away, this feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
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